I recently got told (and get told every so often) that I can be very intimidating. I laugh (because to me it is somewhat funny) yet I wonder… if I were like the guy I once was, super-duper nice, didn’t defend himself, all the traits that people-pleasers show… well, people would STILL try to crap all over me. I recently read about a boy in Texas who was beaten in class, as the teacher and students watched. He allowed some kid to pummel him in front of the world, and he didn’t even lift his arms to defend himself. In my eyes, it’s shameful to see kids be taught to be wusses and crybabies instead of teaching kids to be smart, assertive, independent, etc.
I remember always being deemed “controversial”, “loud”, “outspoken”. I used to try and fight that. Now, I embrace it. It feels good to be the villain in certain situations. By no means am I one to ever start any sort of confrontation. You can rest assured that I will be heard, and I will finish any type of altercation.
Today, I am on a tear. I am finally bursting with ideas. So I’m writing them down. I can certainly say at times, that the life I am leading now is fantastic. On the other hand, being between good and great SUCKS. Things are on the uptick for me, though at times, so may things could be better. As you all know, I am never ashamed or afraid to talk about myself, my flaws. It is imperative I do it this way. To do it any other way would be almost blasphemous to me. A lot of life-changing events happening seemingly at once. I stand back, looking at it all. It’s like I am in a movie, starring me. So I stand to the side, watching myself experience a lot of craziness, foolishness, sadness and frustration. I know things are going to work out as they always do. No magic, no formulas, no potions. Just hard work. I had thought a lot about these things when I was a youngster that things would fall into place. The 37 year old Kente would tell the 15 year-old Kente that it doesn’t work like that. Life is funny like that- you can go from losing to winning in an instant. The converse (or, opposite) is also true.